Chill Out

Relax, I'm not dead. Just had a busy last couple of months so I didn't bother posting anything. Besides, I think I'm reduced down to an audience of one but that's okay. Just posting what's in my mind and heart and I don't think anyone minds that.

Sigh...wow, what an...um, UNUSUAL turn of events. Not bad, very good actually. Friends getting new jobs, new romances and some with both :) and I applaud them. Keep moving forward and I wish you all happiness with whatever comes your way.

But when something like that happens, you can't help but to think to yourself, "Hmm...anything new happening with me?" And as I look at it...well, at least I'm healthier :) Exercising on a regular basis and seeing results (not BIG results but results nonetheless). And it's enough of a motivator for me to keep going. I like the way some of my shirts fit me now. I look almost buff enough to be on the cast of the Jersey Shore...key word being "almost."

I'd like to say that's my goal. To have absolutely massive arms but with no help from steroids. I just want to pump iron and be a monster. Grr! :) but with time, it'll come.

Now I'm listening to some jamz to put me in the mood of relaxation before bed. Have a good one, every one...well...YOU, my only reader. ;) Goodnight.

P.S.- Hang in there...

Futile

I guess when you really think about it all...it was all for naught.

Useless, senseless, futile. Just a big waste of time.

So much effort was put into it...and now, it's not even anything to fight for.

...I guess that's the way some things end up becoming. Futile.

FYI

Yeah, I'm not sure how long I can keep this "F" theme going. It has taken me over a month to think of an "F" title for this blog post. Sad, isn't it? Okay, not really. I've forgotten about this blog from time to time but decided to update it tonight.

So...A LOT has happened since I last posted. Will I tell you everything that has happened? No. Will I tell you just a small portion of what happened? Yes. I went on Spring Break last week and had a wonderful time. I saw many of my friends and had a lot of fun. I ate at a fabulous diner thrice while on break.

I've missed my friends so much. And hopefully I can do it again soon. And I mean...REALLY REALLY soon...grr...

February

Needless to say, this has been quite the month. You'd think it would be an easy one, given that it was short but nooooo...

We had the biggest snow storm in February. Quite impressive, to tell the truth. Got a whole week off from school. It was really nice just sitting in the house playing the Wii, eating all the food in the house. But I later paid for it though. I feel like a blob...well, a BIGGER blob than before.

This was also the month that I took a really nice trip to Pittsburgh, to rendezvous with a friend from college. It was...a really nice evening. Went to the Cheesecake Factory. Yeah, only eating there when I know I have money in the bank. I had their filet mignon. Pretty good and tender. And I got the tiramisu cheesecake. It was divine :D

Basketball season drew to a close (Hallelujah chorus) and man, I'm happy it's over. I've learned a lot about people, coaching, and the sport of basketball. But will I do it again? I'm not going to say no...because something tells me that I will but the fact that I'm going to do it next year is HIGHLY unlikely.

Well it's the month of March and I already know it will have it's fair share of surprises...but I'm looking forward to the end of the month.

It will be...a very nice.

Fierce

Lately I've been feeling this way for some reason. You'd think I was over some things and I thought I was too. But sometimes, things start flooding back.

...and when things start flooding back, I get irritated. And then I get angry. And then I just want to yell. Sometimes I think how unfair it was the certain things happened and no one ever heard my side or my rationale. And then I begin to think about what they put me through and I'd give anything to sit them down and yell and scream at them. Then maybe, just maybe they can taste the pain they've caused me. If I can cause a tear to drop, if I can invoke fear in this person's heart than they'll finally understand. And not only that, but they'll think twice before crossing me.

I'm just get fed up. People getting into my business, making a mess of things and then moving on with live with no regard for the lives they've ruined in the past. No thought about what they did or no concern for how that person feels. Selfish, they are. They say they're concerned. They say they love me. Where are you now? No where to be found.

But then let me flip the script...what have I done? Did I push them away? ...nope, I was on the right track.

You say I have a lot of bitterness...you can say that. I guess I never get over anything. Or at least, I need more time.

Frustrated

I can't sleep and I may know a couple reasons why

1. This snow has really taken it's toll on me. I stay up all night, sleep in, eat and play video games all day. As much as I don't want to do it, I need to start working again. Make myself more useful and perhaps introduce some new things in my daily routine.

2. My itching has come back. Not full force but it's still here. Even with the medication, I just seem to scratch and itch. Makes for a real frustrating night.

3. I worked out Tuesday and still feeling the affects from it. Each day it hurts more. It's getting more and more uncomfortable to do anything. I'll be fine...but not for a while.

4. Can't say much but I'm now dealing with a situation and not quite sure how to handle it. I know one thing, something has to change. Some people may not understand it and some people may not like it but looking at my track record, I'm not a person that is known for pleasing everybody all the time. I guess I'm battling what people will think of me after the fact...but really, that's not my problem; especially if it's for their benefit. I've said too much already

Fever

...yeah, nuff said.

Frozen Tundra

Okay, it's been a while since I posted but that's what happens with blogs. They suffer droughts like the desert and exercise regiments...

Anyway, this winter has been absolutely crazy. December, we got about a foot. Now, the Blizzard of 2010, it's looking like 2 feet of snow. I've never seen anything like this. It's pretty cool...but having no power wasn't all that fun. It lasted about 14 or so hours but our power is back, up and running.

Funny, you don't realize what you have until it's gone. Electricity is one thing. But it can apply to other things as well. Friends...I miss dearly. I know they're not "gone" but they're not available like they used to be.

Eh, change of subject but I've been told I'm good at it. Oh well, have a good one (all three of you)

Fa La La La-La La-La La La

Well it's that wonderful time of the year, my friends. Christmas time. I've been looking forward to this for a long time. The snow, the lights, the presents and what I love most of all, sleeping in! :D

But above that is celebrating the birth of Christ. So many people now are trying to take Christ out of Christmas. But I'll always call it Christmas and not "Happy Holidays" or "Season's Greetings."

I've bought my gifts, sent my cards and now awaiting the bell to release me of my teaching duties for a couple of weeks :) Man, it's been a long week though. I should be closing up shop now.

Well "Happy Christmas," "Christmas Greetings," and "Merry CHRISTmas!!" :D

Franklin

If you all (when I say "you all," I'm speaking to the non-existing crowd) have noticed, I have changed my Facebook profile picture to Franklin, one of the many lovable Peanuts characters. Basically, make Charlie Brown black and give him some hair and presto, you have Franklin.

I've always identified myself with the black characters in cartoons. I guess that was the purpose. Funny thing, I was just thinking about this today while eating some Neapolitan ice cream (chocolate, vanilla, and strawberry). Now, growing up I hated strawberry ice cream. Didn't care for the cold, hard strawberry pieces in the ice cream. Complete nonsense.

But there was a cartoon called "Hey Arnold!" I used to watch all the time. And one of the characters on there was Arnold's best friend, Gerald. I identified myself with Gerald...well as closely as I could anyway. I wasn't as cool as he was. Anyway, there was one episode where Arnold and Gerald got some ice cream. And what flavor did Gerald get? That's right, strawberry. After that, I concluded "Hey, if he can eat it why can't I?"

Now what does identifying yourself with cartoon characters have to do with anything? Nothing really...just thought I'd write about it. :D

Feast

Hello everyone and Happy Thanksgiving to all!

This is a time we all take and give God the glory for everything He has given to us. Giving thanks for not only all the good things but also the trying times in our lives. The Bible tells us that in everything give thanks for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. He that hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Christ Jesus. This is something we all can be thankful for.

So enjoy this time of family, friends, food, fellowship, fun, and football :D (I'm the F master). Anyway, feast away!

Fixed

Some people's minds are just fixed to one frame of thinking.

You can't shake them, no matter how hard you try.

...

...but I guess we're all like that.

Sorry...but I'm fixed.

Foresight

...I saw it coming, ya know. And not only did I see it coming but I saw beyond it.

From mountain top to mountain top, I saw it but I didn't see the valley.

I'm through the valley now. I am another mountain top.

I knew it wasn't going to last forever...even though you thought it would.

I had the foresight.

Fountain City Diner

Ha! You thought I was done...

Anyway, yes! A fresh new spot has hit Knoxville, TN and it's the Fountain City Diner. What makes this place special? Well it's owned by some good friends of mine, the Wagners. When I heard the news that they were opening up a restaurant, I was taken back for a moment. It's not every day you hear that, ya know. But I was happy for them. Too bad I wasn't there for their Grand Opening.

Truth be told, I'm hardly there at all. I'm still up here in MD but trust me, if I was still living in TN, I'd be there practically all the time. It's a great atmosphere and terrific food. Mr. Wagner is a culinary chef and provides the edge that other restaurants don't possess.

I liked the place so much, I started a fan page on Facebook for the diner. Eh, I didn't have too much in mind, just trying to get their name out there but people are joining the fan page. It's nice to know that something I started (the fan page, not the restaurant) is beginening to grow. I hope more people become fans.

Well that's all for now. If you live in TN, stop by the Fountain City Diner. You'll enjoy the place, I guarantee it.

Phone

...well, it sounds like F. You leave me alone

Anyway, I just celebrated a birthday recently and my mother told me that for a gift, she'll buy my next phone upgrade. "Sweet" I thought to myself. I figured I'd get myself one of those touch screens, possibly a Blackberry. But I heard from some friends of mine that Google is coming out with a phone that will blow iPhone out of the water and it's going to be a Verizon phone. "Even better" I thought to myself again. "I'll just wait for that phone."

I go to the stores and no one knows when this phones is supposed to be released. I just about lost my patience (it's only been a week since I heard about it, what does that tell ya?) until I saw an ad for it. The teaser did enough for me to hold out until next month.

I can do it, I can do it...

Fail

So Google Chrome just stopped working on me, on the home PC anyway. I think I may know why. We have Trend, a beast anti-virus, anti-spyware/malware software. It will trap anything that thinks it's a threat and get rid of it. It will also notify you of suspicious activity being performed by a certain program and it will ask you if you want to grant it permission.

It notified me that Google Chrome wanted to do something. I denied permission. Ever since that, Google Chrome has ceased to work. I removed the program and downloaded it again but still nothing.

I'm sure I can get it back if I did some tweaking with Trend but I won't bother. IE will work for now.

Farmhouse Frenzy

So I went to the OCS Secondary Retreat for the first time. It was fun. Food was good, the preaching was great and I was given the opportunity to lead one of my students to the Lord. I'm glad that God used me and that He desires to use me.

While we were there, we played a rousing game of paintball. Since the outdoor course was a bit muddy, we were taken to an indoor course. That's right, a farmhouse. It was a bit interesting. I've never played paintball inside before.

It was an interesting time. The first game, I closed the game out in under 30 seconds. Ha! But then one of the refs told me not to do it because it's for the kids and they need to have fun and blah blah blah so I toned it down after that. I had a pretty good time playing but man, I never got lit up like that before. But it was still fun.

Well the retreat is over and come Monday morning, it's back to the old grind. But it was good to have some time off.

Until next time...

Feeling Frustrated?

Ha...I love being ambiguous. :D

Free Time

Ah....it's nice to have some free time on my hands. I had mentoined that it's really dangerous for me to have money in the bank and nothing to do. And I was racking my brain, trying to think of something to do, somewhere to go, and someone to do something with but I found nothing.

So what did I do when nothing came to mind? I ate hot pockets, stayed on Facebook, and watched college football all night. That was quite enjoyable.

It's hard getting used to the fact that I just can't go somewhere with anyone I want to like I did when I was down at school. Pretty much all my friends are down in Tennessee or elsewhere. Maybe I should focus on making some new friends here.

Anywho, I do like this free time. I need to take more advantage of it before it's all gone.

Foggy

I always have that foggy-headed feeling from the time I WAKE up to the time I GET out of bed. I programmed my radio to go off at 5:30 every morning. You know, I need plenty of time to get ready. Anyway, the alarm goes off this morning and I hear classical music playing. My exact thoughts at that point were thus: "Mmm? Uh, man. I really wish this music would cut off so I can listen out for my alarm...."

So a few minutes go by and I'm still thinking the same thought. The fact that the classical music WAS my alarm didn't dawn on me until I reached for the power button. Heh, then I just chuckled to myself.

Well here I go again, drifting off to la-la land.

Goodnight